It is solitude that encourages and permits the experience of depth. No wonder so many of us avoid it. – Julia Cameron
Do you like to have alone time? I do. I need it. If I don't get it, you don't want to mess with me. I suppose I am somewhat of an introvert but I think it is more than that. It is when I am alone I can really hear my voice and I don't have to worry about what I am thinking and I can just let my thoughts go places I normally don't have time for.
Shortly after I became a mother, I had a series of very unfortunate events happen in my life that changed my path and direction immensely. I didn't know where I was going anymore and so I just decided to focus on becoming the best parent I could possibly be. I lived for being in the moment with my child and that grew into being in the moment in other areas of my life. I still didn't know exactly where I was going but at least I could remember where I had been.
Then another birthday rolled around and although it is one that shouldn't be such a big deal, it really hit me. Where am I going? I spend at least 1 hour a day walking/running through the most scenic places in San Diego reveling in my alone time. I can start to hear my voice again. It is really great. I have decided that I want to pursue my 20 year dream of becoming an illustrator for children's books. Starting today, I am going to create one illustration every day until the end of the year. I am calling it my "Daily Illustration Acquisition." Practice makes perfect right? I will be posting them, the good and the bad.
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It's strange how we sometimes fear that which will bring us joy, peace, strength and focus. I'd rather live "deep" than skim the surface of life. I'm reminded of praying for patience and figuring out what I'm asking for is trying times with trying people in order for its development in my life. I want to grow and live in "depth", but why can't I embrace what it takes to get there. For me the alone time is not the problem, it's getting out of my box and doing new things or embracing the change that will bring me to the next level. I envy this new focus you have and the excitement that so obviously eminates from you that I can feel it even through this computer. I'm on my journey and starting to follow my dreams and set some goals too. Thanks for the inspiration. I look forward to your future illustrations and your uplifting yet real words of wisdom.
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