Sooooo, thus began my first day of 29 Days of Giving. My gift is acceptance of every single person that crosses my path. How did I do today? Well, I forgave, I complained, I gave my whole heart and I didn't judge. At one point today, I surrendered to something that I could have fought against but it mostly would have been wasted energy. There was the gift of a print to my cousin who is sick too. So overall, not so bad a start.
I haven't spoken very much of New Year's resolutions. Here it is the 22nd of January already and I am still contemplating what I need to work on, improve, give up, etc. Since I am always striving to improve and there is always something to work on and I shudder at the thought of giving something up because there is so little I allow myself to indulge in, I can't really come up with anything decent to claim as a resolution. So, I think I'll forgo them this year. Bye-bye. However, I have a list of goals and that is something that I will work on instead. When I finish that up, I will share.
Last year I started a new tradition for myself. My tradition is to come up with one word that is sort of my motto for the rest of the twelve months. My word last year was "motivate" and that was the perfect word for me for the entire year. I'd like to pick a word similar to motivate, a nice action word like develop, inspire, collaborate, resolution, or rebuild. Yes a nice action word would suit me just fine. But no. Sadly no. The word that keeps coming up is "relationship" and I can't seem to get away from it. I have many relationships that could stand to use a little work, cultivating, building and fostering, like we all do. But that isn't where my mind is and not really where I thought my heart was but apparently the universe has other plans for me. So, my word for this year is "relationship."
I have lived with this idea for a few weeks, OK, more like 10 days and 13 hours, and I have decided that I can do this. Everywhere we go and every single person we encounter consists of some sort of relationship. How we handle our thoughts and actions is a relationship with our very own self. My interactions with colleagues require a relationship, my art is a relationship I have with my inner self, and of course my friends and family are daily relationships that could always use a little more sparkle. I don't need to dive into therapy to have this word define my year, which I first thought I might have to do! Everything I learned last year can be applied in my relationships. I see now that these years all build upon each other and by paying attention to the tiny details and moments throughout the year, every relationship can be improved upon and then there will come a day when I don't even have to think about the word anymore and I'll just be living it. Yeah, that's it! (Geez, someone pour her a drink!)
