They say, be kind to yourself. They say, be gentle. They say, go easy. Since doing the opposite hasn't been the right path lately, I have followed directions. I've been kind to myself. I've been gentle and I've gone easy. It's all part of the "simplify" plan for this year.
Um, sadly, no.
When I think I am being kind to myself, I let myself be a slacker. I don't return phone calls, I watch TV, I eat ice cream, I don't make myself be creative when I don't feel like it, I buy things I don't need. When I think I am being gentle, I don't exercise, I sit around more and sometimes even crawl into bed to pull the covers over my head. When I think I am being easy on myself, I stop setting goals, I don't challenge myself, I lean into the thought that I don't have to do much of anything. But, when I do all these things. . . I end up feeling badly about the time gone by filled with being kind, easy and gentle.
I am not sure I've got the right idea about being these things. I think it's better when I am kind by letting myself drink some coffee, go out walking in fresh air, painting a lot, picking up the phone and returning phone calls, setting some goals, eating healthy food that is good for me, and challenging myself because all of that makes me feel alive. This is being kind, being easy, being gentle. I think I just had it wrong.
How about you? How are you kind, gentle and easy on yourself?
I am so grateful for the opportunity to volunteer at my son's school.