I've got something BIG started in my studio. It's a fun painting I've had in my head for a while and decided it was time to get it onto canvas. I am painting over another painting, much to the chagrin of my agent, but I've enjoyed the other one for a while and although most of it gets covered up, it still is underneath. It never really goes away, even if I'm the only one who knows that!
Random Musings:
I found myself hurrying yesterday. Hurrying while I was going on my power walk, rushing to grab a coffee, trying to speed up my exercise to I could go accomplish all I had to do that day. I find myself rushing quite a bit lately and yesterday I had to stop. Stop dead in my tracks and ask myself what exactly was I in such a hurry for?
I've always had a fast pace in life, an urgency for something bigger. Eager for the next big thing. Always thinking there is something better in the future... better than where I am right now. Then, a few years ago, I had a revelation that RIGHT NOW is the sweet spot and it is best to enjoy it while you are in it because if you don't, it quickly just becomes the past.
Then, while stopped on the sidewalk, I profoundly realized that all this hurrying I'm doing now is just a coverup to avoid sitting in an uncomfortable space in my life. Certainly not as uncomfortable as a few years ago when my sister died but more of an itchy and irritating space that is causing me to grow my character at an alarming rate. My classes that aren't everything I thought they'd be, my work schedule, some personal relationships... ALL of it is a square peg desperately trying to fit into a round hole.
I used my word BREATHE, took a few deep breaths and enjoyed my fabulous coffee while strolling in the delightful sunshine around Balboa Park.
Do you ever find yourself rushing about for no particular reason?
Friday's Gratitude: I am so grateful for friendships near and far.